I am getting so into this guy on YouTube! I love his music, he's extremely funny and he's not bad looking either :) haha. His videos are pretty awesome. I actually never watched YouTube until I saw a video of his. He has an interactive video of him going to Disney World! You know I'd be into that lol. He's pretty awesome, and he's a really nice guy too.
Check out his channel! : www.youtube.com/spokesmayne
I really should be going to sleep, cause I'm extremely tired as usual. But I figured I'd do a little update, even though like...no one reads it. haha.
I was actually thinking about how I gave up my youth so quickly...I didn't go to college. I have no friends that I grew up with, or went to high school with. It's just me and Andrew. All the time. And my friends at work, but it's not the same. Everyone has friends from other places. Not Andrew...Not me. Music is really my only friend, which is extremely sad. I've been working my ass off since high school. I got my job at 16 years old, this year will be my 5th year working there. I've been working almost everyday since I was 16. I've got my whole life to work and be an adult...and I've started waaay early. I'll never get my youth back, and I guess now it's too late...
It sucks how life is sometimes...You try to do good and help everyone but nothing really works out at all..
Work again tomorrow. I guess I should get at least some sleep so I'm not too bitchy tomorrow. Hah, that's the normal me now. I'm always in a bad mood, and it's mostly because of my job and not having money.
What a life huh?
Goodnight
Court, I think we are so much alike its a bit scary. I also feel I cut my childhood short, working since I turned 16, it will be 9 years in 3 weeks. I don't have any of the friends I grew up with either, only Nicole who I met when I was 13 and trust me we've had our times where we have been distant for months...
ReplyDeleteWe always have to have a purpose to keep ourselves happy, which is why I am always trying something different :) Do you want to know the real reason why I karate kick the swinging door at work when I have a burst of energy? It isn't to scare everyone. It is simply because walking through a door like a normal person is simply boring. I've been where you are, and have since learned that I am soley responsible for my own happiness. That took me a long time to learn and I am now a better person for it. You'll get there, I know it. I <3 you!
Thanks Karen, I have to realize whatever it is that will make me happy and forget about all the things that I gave up. I didn't really have a childhood either because my mom wanted to "teach me" how to be an adult at an early age. I guess I will be happy one day, until then I'll have to keep on trying I guess. Love you too!
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