When you're feeling love's unfair...You just ask the lonely.

Tonight's a bad night. Been in a bad mood, been fighting a lot with everyone. Crying, yelling and now I'm just tired. I know I always say I'm tired...but that's because I really am. I always do so much in one day that by the end of it...I'm totally exhausted.

I really hope we don't get any snow or ice...or anything of that matter. I'm glad I have the day off tomorrow to start packing and try to relax a bit.

On a brighter note, I lost 4 lbs this week! That is really exciting to me, but for everyone else they could give two shits unless I actually looked thinner and attractive. You can hardly tell that I've even lost anything since I started. Oh well, this is my journey and no one else's. 

The guy upstairs is doing his laundry and 10:30pm. I'm super excited about this because now I'll have to listen to him do his laundry while I'm trying to sleep! I can't wait to get out of this shithole.

I really hope life gets a little more easier sometime soon...knowing my luck it probably won't. But I'm really hoping that it does.

Goodnight, falling asleep at my keyboard.

On the East Coast We Ride.

I am getting so into this guy on YouTube! I love his music, he's extremely funny and he's not bad looking either :) haha. His videos are pretty awesome. I actually never watched YouTube until I saw a video of his. He has an interactive video of him going to Disney World! You know I'd be into that lol. He's pretty awesome, and he's a really nice guy too. 

Check out his channel! : www.youtube.com/spokesmayne

I really should be going to sleep, cause I'm extremely tired as usual. But I figured I'd do a little update, even though like...no one reads it. haha. 


I was actually thinking about how I gave up my youth so quickly...I didn't go to college. I have no friends that I grew up with, or went to high school with. It's just me and Andrew. All the time. And my friends at work, but it's not the same. Everyone has friends from other places. Not Andrew...Not me. Music is really my only friend, which is extremely sad. I've been working my ass off since high school. I got my job at 16 years old, this year will be my 5th year working there. I've been working almost everyday since I was 16. I've got my whole life to work and be an adult...and I've started waaay early. I'll never get my youth back, and I guess now it's too late...


It sucks how life is sometimes...You try to do good and help everyone but nothing really works out at all..




Work again tomorrow. I guess I should get at least some sleep so I'm not too bitchy tomorrow. Hah, that's the normal me now. I'm always in a bad mood, and it's mostly because of my job and not having money.


What a life huh?


Goodnight

Exhausted!

Hello everyone! I'm actually starting to feel better and so is Andrew. We're not a 100% but still getting better :) 


I started my 8 songs a day workout yesterday and let me tell you it makes a difference! I woke up this morning feeling so tired and my body was sore. I've actually had a headache all day so I'm about to try and sleep it off. 


Went out to dinner with Mom and Dad tonight. It was nice. I got the grilled chicken sandwich that I have been craving all day! I ate half of it and I'm taking the rest to work for lunch tomorrow :) Yum! OH they also had cream of crab soup, my favorite!!


I'm so exhausted I'm literally falling asleep right now.
Andrew and I are watching Full House and then I'm heading off to bed :)

Goodnight !

Starting a blog!

Today I thought about starting a blog for myself so I can reflect back on my life and remember everything that went on. Well...looks like it begins tonight! 

To sum up what has happened the past couple weeks: Andrew and I have been sick with the flu for almost 2 weeks now. I think mine started off as a little cold but because he got it worse, he gave it right back to me. I wish we were getting better. I feel a little better but I'm still feeling blah and my sinuses are still full. Andrew still sounds awful and keeps coughing. It's honestly getting on my nerves. He's been out of work the entire time so you can tell how it's not helping out bills much. 

Money isn't going too well right now. It's the slow season in the salon and we're all scraping for money. It kind of doesn't help that we have 11 groomers in a 8 groomer based salon. Oh well, my job obviously doesn't know how to count how many tables are in there. There are 8, not 11. Let's hope for more money coming soon :)

Things to look forward to: March 7th I am moving out of this hell hole I call home! To anyone who reads this, DO NOT MOVE TO FAIRWAYS AT TOWSON. This apartment complex is the worse! If you'd like to know why, you can always ask. I'd love to tell you! Just be prepared, hah. Anyway, Andrew and I are moving to white marsh. It's a really nice place with a fireplace! However, it is more expensive :( I hope we can make it. 

In April I'm turning 21! Finally the day has come. And no I'm not super excited that I can drink legally, well a little excited. But I'm hoping that my family will start treating me like an adult. I doubt it, but it's nice to dream.

I'm also excited to go to Disney World at the end of May! Andrew and I are finally going on a vacation by ourselves for a week to do whatever we'd like! Plus it's my favorite place in world so, I can't stop thinking about it. Very excited!

Things I'm worried about: Last October my Aunt found out she has cancer. It's been a really tough thing on my family and I to go through. I've never been through something like this, and the first few months were very depressing and emotional for me. I couldn't stop thinking about it. I was always zoning out at home, at work, everywhere. She is progressing a bit, but the cancer is still there. She is currently going through radiation for the next two weeks, then back to the chemo. It's really hard to watch her suffer, but she's being very strong about it if you ask me. 

My best friend had her baby, my godson, last October..Which is a good thing. However, she just recently went into the hospital with really bad pneumonia. She can't even breathe on her own. I really hope that she makes a speedy recovery! 

FINALLY! Okay I know it's a lot today, but it's my first blog. What do you expect! I will be blogging about this most of time, so get ready to be bored!--

Starting January 3rd of this year, Andrew and I decided to go on a diet! WOO! Yeah I know, exciting right? Well, I decided it's time to get healthy! We're actually doing pretty well! Shocked? I know me too. Haha. Since the beginning here are the stats:

January 3, 2011-January 26, 2011

Andrew has lost 20lbs!
Courtney has lost 7lbs!

I know, what a bummer right? Look at mine compared to Andrews. Why is so hard for women to lose weight?! Men always lose it so much easier. Oh well, I'm not giving up. I'm feeling so fit! I gave up soda completely, which was my favorite ever! Coca-Cola...mmm. I still have cravings! I stopped drinking caffeine and got a migraine for 3 days straight! IF YOU ARE PLANING ON GIVING UP CAFFEINE AT ANYTIME, DO IT IN MODERATION. Trust me, that head pain was SO not worth it. But anyway, we're doing well! My goal is to lose 60lbs! I know it's going to be tough, but I have a secret to my weight loss....

JUST DANCE 2!

Yep, that's it. Let me tell you, that is a real work out! I've started by doing the JUST SWEAT program. It calculates your SWEAT POINTS. 1 calorie=4.2 sweat points. I'm up to 7 songs a day right now. I'm going to do more and more each week! I'm excited for this new healthy life style!

Now if I can just get rid of this flu....:(

I can't wait for spring/summer! I'm tired of this cold and snow! THAT'S WHY EVERYONE KEEPS GETTING SICK! Boo.

Talk to you soon folks! I'll keep you updated ;)